Ya know, for the past 2 years I've been dooped by the myth of the infamous, "Blue Monday". It's been defined as the most depressing day of the year. Most people say that it's because it's the weekend where credit card bills from the holidays come rolling in, or some variety there of. However, I didn't spend a ton of money on Christmas stuff this year, and I didn't get astronomical credit card bills for January either. Yet, for the 2nd straight year, I'm feeling the "downer" of what's commonly known as "Blue Monday". Maybe it's because I had a long (yet good) weekend, or maybe it's because of something else. Whatever it is, right now I just wanna close my office door, and put my head down. But I can't, for several reasons....the most important is that I have a staff meeting in 2 mins....be back in a few...
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Break
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Ok, I'm back. Staff meeting went well. We just had two job vacancies filled, so it was sort of an "introduction" meeting. Just the normal round table talk about who you are, where you're from, what company you came from, etc...
*Thought to remember*
One of these days I'm going to blog about my boss and the odd conversation we had this morning, about careers, money, and progression.
Anywhos, so here I am 9:25am, wondering why I get caught up in the Blue Monday issue. Maybe it's complacency. Yeah, I'd say that 85% of it is complacency. I just feel like I'm not doing enough; not making enough moves in life. Sometimes I feel like I'm short changing myself, sometimes even lying to myself in saying that everything is ok.
I don't know how other people handle it or deal with it, but I just feel as though God has given me more talents and annoitings than I use. It's really disheartening sometimes. So much, that it's not the easiest thing to explain. "Jaguar" calls it an over exaggeration of a "reality check" on myself. I don't think so, but maybe there is some middle ground there.
I just feel as though it's time to pick it up. Time to forge ahead, not so much as to outdo your opponents, but because I (you) have been granted the God given ability to do so.
Quote for the Day:
Run the Race as if you are the only one in it.
Help Others as if there is no sense of time.
Believe in yourself and don't lean on others approval
Live life as if Today is Tomorrow.
--KJ
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God, thanks for the inspiration to overcome
Monday, January 21, 2008
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
The Rat Race & My Life: Part #1
I remember reading the book "Rich Dad Poor Dad" back in 2007. The author went into great detail in describing what he refers to as "The Rat Race". Defined as (paraphrasing) consuming your life with so much work that you in essence miss the "forest of life, for the trees".
Often times I blog to unload the issues that I often times have with others. Whether it be co-workers, friends, acquaintances, significant others, etc.... However, tonight, I'd like to do a periodical "self analysis."
Honestly, I sometimes (often times) feel that I'm caught up in a real life rat race. It doesn't help that I work in Corporate America amongst the bureaucracies and political jargon that causes many people to stray away from this scene. But I do. As many of you know I have an office, on the 16th floor of a nice office building, somewhere in the Mid Atlantic. But what you may or may not know is my age or my ethnicity or how they both play such a huge role in me having to consistently work to outdo the "mainstream". You see I don't get to go home at 5pm "everyday". I wish I could, but I can't, because in the midst of this "rat race", I find myself running laps around a track that doesn't seem to have a finish line.
Side note: Perhaps it does have a finish line, but sometimes it's rather difficult to recognize.
In any event, I battle. Not so much with the onslaught of my surroundings, but often times with the "me inside of me" (as Malachi said - Apache Cafe 2004). On one hand I'm a staunch believer in having sound morals. I believe the little guy can win, and should often times in order to keep life's balance. I believe that black people should ban together and realize that the "whole is greater than the sum of its parts". On that same side I'm a believer that good always beats evil, and that living life to its fullness is a necessity of happiness.
Then there is the other side of me. The side that says, "KJ, keep your head to the grind and pay no attention to your surroundings, they will only distract you.".
side note: And there in lies my issue.
The side of me that says to keep my head down and keep running totally negates the side of me that believes in helping others and realizing that me keeping my head down is a total 180 from the ideology of the forest and the trees (or missing one for the other).
I guess what doesn't make it any easier, is the simple fact that there isn't anyone that I can openly talk to, that can in essence relate. Arrrrghhhh it's frustrating sometimes.
Side note: My thoughts are jumbled...I know.
Ok, I should stop now, my thoughts are moving to and fro and I can't keep up with them......plus I've abandoned my workout tonight in lieu of going to Walmart to pickup a few things. Hopefully I can get up in the morning in time to make this one up.
Talk to you soon,
KJ
Often times I blog to unload the issues that I often times have with others. Whether it be co-workers, friends, acquaintances, significant others, etc.... However, tonight, I'd like to do a periodical "self analysis."
Honestly, I sometimes (often times) feel that I'm caught up in a real life rat race. It doesn't help that I work in Corporate America amongst the bureaucracies and political jargon that causes many people to stray away from this scene. But I do. As many of you know I have an office, on the 16th floor of a nice office building, somewhere in the Mid Atlantic. But what you may or may not know is my age or my ethnicity or how they both play such a huge role in me having to consistently work to outdo the "mainstream". You see I don't get to go home at 5pm "everyday". I wish I could, but I can't, because in the midst of this "rat race", I find myself running laps around a track that doesn't seem to have a finish line.
Side note: Perhaps it does have a finish line, but sometimes it's rather difficult to recognize.
In any event, I battle. Not so much with the onslaught of my surroundings, but often times with the "me inside of me" (as Malachi said - Apache Cafe 2004). On one hand I'm a staunch believer in having sound morals. I believe the little guy can win, and should often times in order to keep life's balance. I believe that black people should ban together and realize that the "whole is greater than the sum of its parts". On that same side I'm a believer that good always beats evil, and that living life to its fullness is a necessity of happiness.
Then there is the other side of me. The side that says, "KJ, keep your head to the grind and pay no attention to your surroundings, they will only distract you.".
side note: And there in lies my issue.
The side of me that says to keep my head down and keep running totally negates the side of me that believes in helping others and realizing that me keeping my head down is a total 180 from the ideology of the forest and the trees (or missing one for the other).
I guess what doesn't make it any easier, is the simple fact that there isn't anyone that I can openly talk to, that can in essence relate. Arrrrghhhh it's frustrating sometimes.
Side note: My thoughts are jumbled...I know.
Ok, I should stop now, my thoughts are moving to and fro and I can't keep up with them......plus I've abandoned my workout tonight in lieu of going to Walmart to pickup a few things. Hopefully I can get up in the morning in time to make this one up.
Talk to you soon,
KJ
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