Under the TurnedOver Leaf

Our will is a gift!
-Lauren Hill

As I'm embarking on this new journey, I can see that there are things being placed in my life by no one but God. It started off simple, but as time has gone on things are beginning to esculate. But out of this lighted abyss, I must understand that the only way to submerge my inner self from this carcassed belief in material/worldly inhibitions is to fully understand Free Will. I look at many of my everyday events and see how I allow freewill to lead me.......albeit astray or along the path of righteousness it leads me. I have long since wondered why I loved the Trilogy "Matrix", but it is becoming clear as well. That entire trilogy is purely about Free Will. Yet, I can't come up with a clear definition of what it is.....I begin to define it and it leads me astray in itself......example:

Free will: (noun or verb? you choose) - the ability to decide. A method of which route to take. Decifering between one or the other, right or wrong.

But where my conscious takes me to is that grey area where free will leads me to the endless field, between the fork in the road.

{following written while jamming Lauren Hill's Freedom Time Unplugged}
Cliche: "I've turned over a new leaf!" But to me it isnt/wasnt about the action of turning over that leaf....what mattered most was what was under that new leaf. It had to be more nutured and preserved than its scortched & battered counterpart. I'm at the point of distinction in life, the point of taking my place.......avoiding the war of the mind. Stepping not just up, but seeing the third dimension and stepping up, over & out. God has more for me......more for this soul, this mind.....more meat for this vessel that yearns to consume the goodness of his annointing.
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"Character is defined as what we do when no one else is watching"

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I stopped by Waldens for lunch today and picked up AW's book from my book list to read another chapter. I have refused to buy the book, no harm to AW, but she has more money that I'll ever see, lol. Im just getting into it, but its different to say the least. I find it a soothing entity to spend my lunch hour submerged in her work while the hussle and bussle of business surrounds me at high noon of the worlds largest new media outlet [CNN Atlanta]. Kinda ironic though, allowing yourself to get taken away into another world, while sitting at the basin of the hub of an outlet that tries to subconsciously do the same thing.
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