Knocking on Heaven's Front Door

Morning:

I know, I know, I know....I haven't been around in the past few days.....well since Friday, and today's Tuesday.......charge it to my head, not my heart. So what has been going on in the little ole world of mine since last friday? Let's see, where do I start.....oh how about Friday..yeah, that sounds profitable.

Friday- I had talked with MS earlier that day about carpooling over to Athens, for a party at Club Insomnia (keep in mind, that I'm never the party goer, so this trip was purely to get out of the house, lol). After getting a call from MAG, and realizing that we both had double booked ourselves that night, we decided that all three of us would just get together and make the trip [on her company car tab, : ) ]. So we get there right, and it's like 10:30pm, and I'm thinking well, there may not be that many people there at this time of night, but at least a few folx would be there...........well, how about wasn't a soul up in the building when we got there {Imagine that, the first folx there??} So we headed down to Starbuck cause MS wanted to try this new Frappacino, and my ignorance of caffeine wanted to try as well. We order two Chocolate Chip Frappacinos. The NASTIEST stuff I've ever tasted. Still leaves bad tastes in my mouth when I think about it. So that was a waste of $3.20. Afterwards we met up with a few more sorors (one of which I shall deem ?, and will discuss later). So we are all talking right...and I'm like [insert soror name], "isn't it wrong for me to look at these 'little' girls walking the strip considering I'm 22?" And no sooner than I get the words outta my mouth, does this girl who looks to be 17 calls out "MY" name. "Hey, [insert my name]" So im like "what the ????" Lo and behold its the sister of mid-march. I was like "you gotta be kiddin me". So we talked for a few minutes about some things that were unclear to both of us. You seen EH was like my little sister. She'd always call me for advice on this, that, and the other. But after March, we pretty much didn't talk. Maybe once or twice on instant messenger, but I didn't want cause any undue stress, so we both just left it alone. But after the conversation, and learning some new things, it really put a lot of stuff into prospective. So after that escapade combined with me getting jousted by the pham for talking to this little girl who looked no more than 17, we headed back to the club. Anywho, the party was cool, except for the abundance of White Tee's and Locals.....

Saturday - After not getting home until 4:30am I really didn't want to get up and go skating, but I had made MAG a promise that I would, so by 11: 30am I was at the skating rink, sleepy, tired, and every other word you could use to describe not getting enough sleep. Afterwards, I stopped by CarSpa to get my car washed and then did my normal grocery shopping and such, that I normally do on Friday's. Ironically, that night Me, MAG, and MS got back together and did dinner at Buffalo's Cafe. Those two are a real trip, and they keep me grounded which is a good thing, and is what I need now in life.

Sunday - I WENT TO CHURCH!!!! It's been far too long. If I told you, you probably wouldn't believe me. Let's see....how about since June 26th to be exact. And I promise you that it was trully a breathe of fresh air. And I know that God is all knowing, but I don't know how He knew to have me meet MAG. She invited me to her church (New Life Baptist Church - Decatur Ga.) and I must say that it was trully Heaven sent that I went. You see, the pastor made clear what I kinda knew, but had no idea how to put into words/action. He let me know that when we become Saved, that satan no longer has authority of our bodies, like in the New Testament when evil spirits would be inside a person's body. So now, he attacks the mind. And I promise you guys, that is what he has been focusing on with me. Its like he will try to pick that part of my mind that he knows will cause me to have a sinful nature, and he will hone on that.....but now I know, and can make it a tangible focus. Which is where the title, "Knocking on Heaven's Front Door". I see that this dude (satan) is gonna keep chasing me, because he knows what God has for me. So I figure, if/since there is satan's storm coming....why not knock on God's house and ask Him if he will have me in out of the rain. I've found out that not only will He allow us in, but He'll give us new clothing & a coat of armor to battle the deceivingness of satan himself.

So here I am, it's tuesday morning around 10:00am. Yesterday was a blur, with class and all. I'm still fighting temptations, but as I look back I'm seeing that I am winning now more than I was losing before, which means that I have to be moving in the right direction. And I thank You for it God. My peace of mind is beginning to ease into its restful state of being.

*Now if I can get these bills paid off I'll be alright* lol

One Step at a time KJD One Step at a time.

Yall keep me in ya prayers, and I'll do the same.

"Character is defined as what we do when no one else is watching"