Seeing in between the lines

You know...never in a million years would I have thought that I'd be listening to Maroon 5. While I don't listen to a lot of their music, this hook "She will be loved" is hot...

So it's 30 minutes until closing time here at the Matrix (what I call my job). I normally don't blog late in the day, but for some reason today... 3:30 seems like a great time. You know there are some good things going on in my life right now; and some things that I'd like improve on. I kind of like it that way though....always appreciating where you are at a particular place in life, then simultaneously realizing that there are places in which you can grow. I think that I wrong a post a few years ago concerning the different between change and growth...funny how as time has passed, that notion still applies. Growth, in my opinion requires a positive ascension...while change leave the door open for you to take steps backwards..

(music change: Gravity by John Mayer...ya boy is expanding his horizons)


Randomness:

Two more softball games tonight. We didn't fair too well last night. Just couldn't get the bats going like we normally do. It's a long season, and I still think that we can finish in the #1 position, so I'm cool with that.

Time cooked tonight; and invited me to stop by and pick up a plate. Now maybe I think too much....but she claims that she "always" cooks too much and wants to "give it away" or else throw it away. The part of me that thinks too much wonders if she's cooking for me or if what she says really is the whole truth. Women are hard to read. I sometimes catch myself, laughing at myself here at work. You know, I can look an excel file with 16,640,000+ cells (yes that is accurate, that's about how many cells are in excel) and see trends, root causes, positive growth spikes, points of interests, normal distributions, and about every other analytical jargon you can come up with. But what I have yet to master is how to listen to the words of a women and figure out what the heck they mean. Can you imagine how frustrating that is, lol? To feel like creating a database system that captures an entire business model is the simplest thing in the world; but figuring out whether she is showing you that she likes you is the hardest thing in the world to figure out. I'm sure that at some point Time will read this; and I don't care, lol.....at some point I just have to get it off my chest, lol. I mean I gave a Nuclear Physics presentation on how Hydrogen and Helium bonds form Lithium, and how those nuclear bonds form Oxygen and Nitrogen and Barium, and Sodium, and Chlorine. I stood there and convinced most of them that the Big Bang theory and the biblical 7-Day creation were one and the same. I can explain to a "t" why (scientifically) iron is the most common found element in the body!! Heck I published an article showing how you could predict someones age, in a Nationally recognized journal.........................but you telling me that I can't....for the life of me......tell if a woman is pursuing me; however slightly it may be. Am I blind, and I naive, am I totally missin the ball on this? Are friendships.....relationships....any other -ships more complex than nuclear physics....more thought provoking than Gabriel's Horn (see Calculus II).

Maybe...just maybe....they are.

Go figure

I know I know....God is still in control...I just needed to make sure my thoughts weren't lost.

Until then,
Journey