Withdrawl...

....is perhaps a dish best served cold. I don't say that because it's been nearly 8 months since I last wrote about my Journey, but because of the things that have transpired since I last released my thoughts, in a meaningful manner. Withdrawal is a mug, really it is. You think about drug addicts and how they have to wane themselves off of "the hit". I don't really know if it's possible to go "cold turkey", regardless of what the addition is. I had addictions....perhaps not drugs, but addictions none the less. And believe you, me, going Cold Turkey isn't the easiest thing in the world to do. Cold turkey means that you have cut off "all" associations to that thing with which you are addicted to. I guess in my case, going cold turkey cause me to wake up day after day, realizing something that I wrong about years ago. I wrong this remix of Maya Angelou's alone back in 2004. Ironically, as 2010 comes into full effect, I find myself in a similar, yet more lengthy, situation as I was in in 2004, with regard to this same addiction. But I digress, and I lay here in the bed, the clock slowly approaching 12am.

On a more meaningful note, since last we spoke I turned 28, got a promotion, and found myself wondering what 2010 will bring with it. I do know one thing that should find itself sustained in 2010....that's the Journey, and all the things that come along with it.

For example, today I got a really good Word in Church. The title of the message was about Moving from Worry to Peace. In a general sense, I can honestly say that for the most part, I don't worry about too many things in life these days. Now that isn't to say that I don't have areas in my life where I don't worry at all, because that would be a lie. Specifically speaking to the addictions I spoke to a moment ago. In any event, as I sat in the pew (yet another church where I don't know anyone), I found myself both convicted and inspired all in the same emotion. Convicted to the sense that I knew exactly what Pastor Brown was preaching to, yet I hadn't fully implored it into my life over the past few years. Inspired because sometimes it simply takes someone else telling you something you already know for it to actually sink in and take root. Probably shouldn't be that way all the time, but for this time it definitely was.

So I say all this to say that perhaps today marks the beginning of my 12 step program of ridding myself of my addiction, lol.

Tomorrow marks a new day, Lord willing. And hopefully I'll have more posts this year than last (4).

Man I miss my thought release via gentleman101.blogspot.com

Be back soon,
Journey