Spurs of the Moments

(Headphones on).....off into my own little world for a few minutes.

I remember when I used to blog at work. Back then things were a lot simpler. I look back on 2004 and remember how there were fewer things to make decisions on. Then somehow in the midst of that thought, I'm suddenly reminded of how one of the main things I dealt with (unsuccessfully) back then, remains one of the things I continue to deal with 6 full years later. And I can honestly say that it's more frustrating than disappointing. Or maybe it's a mixture of both. The seasons have changed, the leaves have fallen, and grown again (and again). And yet there remains this one thing that I struggle with. I find myself in the middle of my morning runs, thinking about it (or the lack there of); wondering where did I go wrong on this track of successfully finding what I've longed for for well over 6 years. 2010 will be gone before I know it.....wonder whether or not it will be found before 2011........

I've decided to title this blog Spurs of the Moments because I'm over here having random thoughts (see above).

So I need to get enrolled in this class right. I know I know, it's January 28th and I should have taken care of this long ago. But.....what had happened was. The class requires and override, so I have first track down the professor to get him to sign the override for the registrars office. Well this guy takes a subliminal leave of absense, and is nowhere to be found until the first week of classes. So by the time I get him to sign it, it's too late to register for classes, so I have to not only get the override, but now I have to get an overide for registration since registration is closed. But that's not the pont. I've called this lady at the registration office "5" (count'em FIVE) times.....with no response. I call, and the receptionist says "sure I'll transfer you to her office"..............................voicemail....everytime. So the last time I asked the receptionist if she (Mrs. Stephens) was even at work this week........answer: "yes, she's in her office". So basically, my tuition is going to Mrs. Stephens sitting on her kister, not taking my phone calls..........(to be continued).

So first it was Imeem.....who was recently acquired by Myspace. Imeem used to let you listen to "anything"....whenever you wanted to. Just type in an artist or album, and bam.....there you go. Soooo ticked off that it's now under the Myspace brand. I'm totally against MS...I think it's da debil, lol. So now I listen to music.aol.com.....not the same, but the NeoSoul station is hot.

Ok.....no more spurs of the moments.....but from the looks of my writing, I'm beginning to think that I might be bipolar, lol. Just kidding, I think it had to do with the NeoSoul station. went from Kem, to John Legend to Groove Theory, lol.


Well until we chat again.
My Journey

Withdrawl...

....is perhaps a dish best served cold. I don't say that because it's been nearly 8 months since I last wrote about my Journey, but because of the things that have transpired since I last released my thoughts, in a meaningful manner. Withdrawal is a mug, really it is. You think about drug addicts and how they have to wane themselves off of "the hit". I don't really know if it's possible to go "cold turkey", regardless of what the addition is. I had addictions....perhaps not drugs, but addictions none the less. And believe you, me, going Cold Turkey isn't the easiest thing in the world to do. Cold turkey means that you have cut off "all" associations to that thing with which you are addicted to. I guess in my case, going cold turkey cause me to wake up day after day, realizing something that I wrong about years ago. I wrong this remix of Maya Angelou's alone back in 2004. Ironically, as 2010 comes into full effect, I find myself in a similar, yet more lengthy, situation as I was in in 2004, with regard to this same addiction. But I digress, and I lay here in the bed, the clock slowly approaching 12am.

On a more meaningful note, since last we spoke I turned 28, got a promotion, and found myself wondering what 2010 will bring with it. I do know one thing that should find itself sustained in 2010....that's the Journey, and all the things that come along with it.

For example, today I got a really good Word in Church. The title of the message was about Moving from Worry to Peace. In a general sense, I can honestly say that for the most part, I don't worry about too many things in life these days. Now that isn't to say that I don't have areas in my life where I don't worry at all, because that would be a lie. Specifically speaking to the addictions I spoke to a moment ago. In any event, as I sat in the pew (yet another church where I don't know anyone), I found myself both convicted and inspired all in the same emotion. Convicted to the sense that I knew exactly what Pastor Brown was preaching to, yet I hadn't fully implored it into my life over the past few years. Inspired because sometimes it simply takes someone else telling you something you already know for it to actually sink in and take root. Probably shouldn't be that way all the time, but for this time it definitely was.

So I say all this to say that perhaps today marks the beginning of my 12 step program of ridding myself of my addiction, lol.

Tomorrow marks a new day, Lord willing. And hopefully I'll have more posts this year than last (4).

Man I miss my thought release via gentleman101.blogspot.com

Be back soon,
Journey