Warfare From The Past

You ever have one of those "blah" days, where it seems like everything in the world is in slow motion. Well today is one of those days. I don't know if it's because this woman name "Frances" has decided to just plop down whatever remains of her on Georgia, or if its because I have caught a terrible cold.....whichever is the case, I hope they both end soon.

Anywho, this past weekend has been eventful to say the least.

Friday - *Pounding Gavel* -> I have deemed Friday Nights to belong to the solitude of KJD (me), lol. This past friday night, after happy hour with some co-workers, I put on some good music.....cut down the lights...cut off the cell phone.........and got into some ..........'good ole playstation'!!!! I bet you thought I was going to say something bad, didn't you. hahahahha. NCAA Football 2005 has to be one of the greatest games ever. I have my team (Nebraska) ranked #1 in the Nation. Needless to say between that and a brief conversation with MAG, which was quite eventful, my night was good.

Saturday - MAG and I decided to hit up the skating rink in Smyrna. Man that place brought back so many memories....*thinking*....the old guy in the middle that did nothing but dance on skates all night....ICEE's....me trying to turn curves (note to self: put outside foot over inside foot, lol)....and the infamous "Set It Off" song, that they alllllwayyys play in the Skating Rink. I haven't had that much fun in a few weeks. I enjoyed MAG....afterwards we went to Olive Garden with tee-shirts and sweatpants on, but had a good time anyways. After which, I packed up and headed to my good ole hometown, Fort Valley.

I got there around 7:30, which was cool.....cause nobody knew I was comin, and I could at least try to get some rest.....which I did.

Sunday - I didn't wake up till around 10:00 Sunday morning, so I guess you can concure from that that I didn't go to church.....but I'm really contimplaiting going with MAG this Sunday. I put on some clothes and headed up to my fathers job, and hung out with him for a while......

Rant & Rave:

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I remember when I was little, we use to go up to the nursing home, but going back there this weekend put a whole new spin on it for me. My father works there so he is use to seeing people in that shape...but I'm not. Now I don't mean that I'm soft or anything, but when he took me into the psychiatric ward, and I saw the condition of some of those people.....man that really hit hard. I don't ever want to be in that condition.....yall just let me die before I get there....
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So afterwards, we went back to his house and grilled out.....man, nothing beats good ole soul food....Meat on the Grill, Greens, Cornbread.....yall folx up North just don't know what you guys are missing.

Sunday night, I ran into an Ex from High School....which is where Warfare with the Past comes from. MP proceeded to ask me how things were in my life.....was there a Mrs. KJD....how much she use to be in love with me....and all this that and the other. Now keep in mind that the reason that MP & I ended almost 6 years ago, was due to the fact that I had hard evidence of her unfaithfulness....and the funny thing was....even though she has grown physically (cause she is fine as they come), she is still not there (for me at least) mentally. I mean she was wanting to go down the whole intimacy path, and I had only seen her for like 3 hrs? Im like WHAT? Anywho, she got dismissed early...like 10:00pm early. But I won't say that it was easy, cause like I said two lines above....she is fine as they come...lol.

Monday - Got up kinda early in hopes of getting back on the road at a decent hour and before the tropical storm rolled through......but as you can probably suspect, I didn't hit the road till dang near 7pm. Timi talked to me on the phone while I drove through the storm, which made it a little better. I still say she is my Angel, but she'll just reply with "Aw, your such a sweety", lol. Thanx girl!

So here I am........ready to tackle another day, embark on more blessings.....a new day, new mercies, new beginning, and another chance to better myself, as 1. A child of God 2. A man of Christ 3. A man of righteousness. As I have stated before, I know that I won't always have good days, but without struggle there is no progress. I'm learning to fight back, mentally. To overcome this sinful nature that tries to strife away at my soul throughout each moment of each day of each hour and of each second. I know now that I have God on my side. But I also know now, that that was never the problem.......the problem was that I often times chose not to be on His side, by going against His Will on my life. He has always been there.......it was I who Failed. But that's merely a figment of my imagination now.......only used by satan himself to try and mock me and discontinue my path of righteousness. Move aside satan....my road to salvation is not big enough for the Three of us.

Lord you are my Free Will. When I stopped trying to force My Will, and freed my mind, body, & soul, to allow Your Will........then My Will became Your Will and Your Will became Free Will. Free to praise & worship He who strengths me. Free to not have a closet religion.....Free to employ My New Found Will on the world and give praises unto Him who has blessed and prospered so many.


See He can even overcome Blah days...........ahhhh *signing*......I feel so much better now!

See you guys soon

KJD