Epiphany Praise

[I tell you guys...I-75 can do some things to the soul]

So last night was my first Economics Test. And to not have to go into the whole story about how I had a copy of the actual test 15mins before the test actually started, but was cohersed to believe that he wouldn't give the same test..........which he did!!! And I majorly bombed it......but oh well! Why do I say "oh well".......well that leads me to I-75 today for lunch.

So I leave the office around 11:35 or so, headed to the bank to make sure I get this deposit in before any other erroneous debits clear my account, and I start getting those white envelopes (NSF's)! So needless to say, I'm worried about money.....worried about my test....worried about making it back to work on time.....worried about wondering if this stage in my life is the darkest of that dark road I mentioned a few posts back (see Hwy. True Love)......worried about my credit report and making sure I can get it presentable by the time I am ready to buy my first home....just worried period!!!! And the "stream of consciousness/Epiphany" kicks in....so I begin to think back to the bible study class we have on monday's here at my job, and how a few weeks ago we talked about "worrying" and how it was basically calling God a liar.......I mean think about it......God is telling me time and time again that He "has my back", that He "will supply all my needs", that He "will never leave my side"......and what do I do.....I worry that I won't make it....worry that I won't succeed.....when He has already told me that I will???? GO Figure!

Anywho, so thinking hard on that, and listening to 97.5 ( this song about praising Him no matter what) began to echo in my soul, to resound throughout the halls of my spirit.......and at that point, somewhere between the Brookwood Curve and North Ave., IT HIT ME! I'm going to stop worrying........not "stop worrying so much"....but plain and simple "STOP WORRYING". As I dwell on it, it seems that it will bring forth so much more comfort.......and isn't that what God is.......our comforter?

So from now on......and you guys mark my word......no more rants about this and that.......no more posts about 'lost finances'........."I claim it in the name of my Lord & Savior Jesus Christ"......my bills will get paid....my health will strengthen....my heart will heal....and Lord willing my very soul will prosper.......I won't accept anything less.........I mean He has told me that I can have it, so I will.......I decree this day, Tuesday October 12 2004, that no longer will KJD live a life of worrying...a life of doubt...a life of uncertainty.....a life of misguidedness........I will overcome.....

I've realized that to a certain extent you have to be conceited about your praise...about your worship.....because if you don't you begin to have a "closet religion"....a closed off spiritual entity that can not be fruitful to the world.......like the guy who was only given 1 talent, where he went and buried it!!!! No longer will I bury my thirst for Christ......my hunger for righteousness......my breathe for the fresh air and fruitfulness of My Father leading me down the path of righteousness.......HEAVEN....HERE I COME.

So the next time someone asks me "what I want to do with my life........I'll proudly tell them......I WANT TO PRAISE" and praise till I can't praise anymore....and when I die......I will wake up the graves while praising to my Lord & Savior.......who has been so good to me, that no blog ever published could even begin to capture the words to surround the goodness he has bestowed upon my life!

What A Nice Tuesday Drive!