Knites in armor

You can call it an epiphany, or you can call it me, just being plain out nosey and wrong, but I realized some stuff tonight. You can attempt to sugar coat something to make it taste sweeter, but the longer you taste it, the sourer it will get! A person is only as good as the roots from which they stand on.

I’m really beginning to get a grasp of this concept of “fear.” I mean, I’m no different from any other child of God, I have emotions, and in them, fear attempts to render its ugly head. There I admitted it, sometimes fear has gotten the best of me. But that’s not the point. The point is when you begin to loose that “ignorance”, and begin to move forward from ignorance to understanding.

RB and I had a talk tonight. It was interesting though, cause I said something tonight that I literally had “never” heard myself say, and believe me, you, I talk to myself a lot sometimes. I remember saying that I’ve experienced so many different issues with relationships, that now I value, so much, the next person I enter into “any” covenant with. I mean, I’ve thought that thought for some time now, but I’d never expressed it to anyone else. Maybe it’s right, and maybe it’s not, but I it suits my soul, and I’m content.

It bothers me when people lie, especially to me. I mean lying is bad, but when it happens to me, it’s even worseL! I was lied to today, and not about something petty, but about something that was near and dear to me. How do I know I was lied to you ask? Well, like I said in the first sentence, maybe I’m nosey, but I found out. But I guess which one is worse, them lying or me being wrong about how I found out? I say them lying! And to make it even worse, it was by someone who I care about a great deal. I mean, I wonder what goes on in a person’s head when, in one sentence, they say they’d go to the end of the world for you, and the next, they turn around and shoot you a lie.

Go figure, but I’mma keep holding strong. As the week progresses, I’mma trying to get some work done for Finance class on Thursday, and see about this upcoming case that I have to present in Accounting class. I’m glad I’m beginning to get things in line at work (or at least I’ll find out tomorrowJ).

Well its 10:20pm, and I need to finish this PowerPoint presentation by tomorrow morning! So, I’ll catch up with you later man…..

Peace

Let us not fear, for then we have given all authority given to us by God Himself, over to Satan! God has more for you, than all your fears could ever imagine. Trust in Him, and in all His ways, He shall brighten your path.