Today's Tomorrow...

So much is going on in life right now, yet so much seems stagnant. Have you ever spent a Saturday morning cleaning up your house, only to realize on Monday that it's dirty again? Well that's kinda how I feel about life right now. Seems like as soon as I get one thing taken care of, something else surfaces. Whether it be a person, or a way of thinking, or any other of a number of issues, that I guess normal people deal with on a weekly basis.

Ok, so I'm rambling. But it's Wednesday, and there's only 1 hr left till quittin time. Between facebook, pandora, huffington post, and a barrage of other websites, I just can't seem to stay focused today. Maybe softball will help calm my nerves tonight. We play two games tonight. One at 8:45, and the other at 9:45. Last week I hit a homerun!! It had to have cleared the fence by a good 20 or 30 feet. The downside is that I think I tweaked my hamstring...again!!! I probably should lay off it tonight, but since tonight is co-ed, maybe I'll be ok. Our Thursday night team (all mens) has the week off. Hopefully I'll be healed by then.

(more rambling)

So I got a chance to go to my church (WCCI) last Sunday, while back in Atlanta. Pastor Dollar has started a new series on Lust. And man was it needed. Not necessarily on the man-woman -lust tip, but on the lust-of-the-world tip. He mentioned a scripture in the bible that really resounded with me. He the doeth the will of God shall abideth forever. I can recall a conversation with divinity the other day. During the conversation I mentioned to her something so profound that it sent God's spirit racing through my bones. I said that a sermon titled "You're Trippin; On My time" would be something powerful and magnificent.

(sidebar...amazing how my thoughts become more streamlined when I talk about God)

As I recollect on the sermon from this past Sunday, those two thoughts began to blend together. Profoundly enough, as it relates to my own life. Some times I feel as though I'm trippin, on God's time, by not always doing the Will of God. What's so crazy (and ultimately good because I'm learning myself) about it is that I believe satan has begun to use the idea of relationships with women as a road block, so that I'll miss growing in other areas of my life. What does that mean you say? Well you see, I've seen a lot of my friends get married over the past few years; and I guess moreso recently I had the thought cross my mind of....when will I find my rib. Well in doing so, envy arises. Not of the person, but of the idea. And in doing so, my thoughts become directed solely in the direction of that, while missing out on why I'm actually here in the Mid-Atlantic. I just feel as though I'm trippin, but missing out on the other things that I know I should be doing. Like tutoring, or volunteering at the Food Bank. Both of which I have a yearning desire to do; yet somehow I find other things to replace doing what I'm suppose to be doing.

(Sidebar: It's ok to beat myself up sometimes)

Anywho's school started back. I got a B+ in my last class, unfortunately. I got a little ticked at the idea of having 4 professors teach a 6 week class that was originally designed for 1 professor. but oh well, it could have been worse. Speaking of worse, I'm taking a cost accounting class this semester, and it is really going to kick my butt, if I don't buckle down. We had our first quiz last night, and ya boy was drawing T accounts everywhere. Raw Mats, Overhead, WIP, Finished Goods, you name it, I had it on the paper....and not a clue what to debit, and what to credit, lol. It's been a minute, but gimme a good week of studying, and I'll be back up to speed :).

Other than that, such is life. The kia is still running, barely, and I have a few dollars in the bank. I started a budget with excel back in May that has helped me see where all of my money is going...and believe me you...I have done my fair share of dining out. But I'm getting better.....

And I guess that's the theme of today's post......Getting Better...

Stay Blessed
kj